She said it was fine. That usually means it’s not. I’m not really sure what is fine. Was it because I didn’t have the ring yet? Or was it because I had asked Teniron to make it. He did make it. It’s exactly what I asked for. It’s beautiful and perfect, just like Isandri, and I don’t know if she wants it. If it was because I hadn’t picked it up yet then I can give it to her, and everything will be better. If it was because Teniron made it then I don’t know what to do.
I sat on the wall at the landing a bit today. It’s a quiet spot, and you get to see people coming in and leaving. No one really bothers you there, they’re too busy coming and going. I sit off to the side anyway. I could see over the edge. I realized that I’ve lived in Northrend for almost four years now, but I’ve only really ever seen Dalaran, and the tournament grounds. I can’t even joust.
I thought about going somewhere, just for the night. Sleeping with her without doing anything is driving me nuts. I don’t really want to be away from her. I’m staying here in Dalaran. I’ll go insane if that’s what she wants.
I don’t know if Isandri really likes me much. When I asked her to marry me, she wasn’t very enthusiastic about saying yes, although she did. Maybe she only said it because she thought she was supposed to.
Now everything’s wrong. I stopped by some of the jewelry shops. I bought a different ring. The guy selling it said the gems used were flawless, but I looked closer when I got home, under magnification, and the large one has a tiny flaw. Jewelers usually know about these when they buy the gems. I don’t think Isandri will notice. I should have demanded to look at it under magnification in the store. It doesn’t show. The ring I bought cost four times as much as the materials and labor for the one I asked Teniron to make, and it’s not as nice.
I bought a necklace too. I’ll enchant it the same as the other. I think I can make it work with the same ring that I linked the other to. She can decide which she wants to wear. I wasn’t able to get anything as nice as what Teniron did.
She’s said things about my home being small as well, so I might need some money left over to move soon.
But if she hates me, I should send her back to her parents. She can keep the rings and stuff.
I don’t know why I keep trying.