I’m such an idiot. Twice an idiot actually. Not only am I scared to tell her how I really feel about her, but I talked to Teniron about it.
I met with Isandri again last night. She’s so beautiful and sweet. It’s hard to believe that Sath is her brother. I wanted to tell her how much I like her. I’m an idiot. I don’t want to scare her off. I don’t know if she likes me that much. I don’t know how to tell her.
So I talked to Teniron. I told him I’ve been talking to a girl, and that she’s been talking to me. I told him that I liked her a lot, but I wasn’t sure if she liked me. Then I asked how to tell if she liked me. He said if she stops charging you… then he added that discounts might count too, depending how much the discount was for. I don’t think he really understood, and now he’s just going to laugh about it every time he sees me. I locked my bedroom door and packed my bags. I might be staying in Fairbreeze for a few days. He didn’t see me leave. Maybe he’ll be gone when I get back. I hope he doesn’t trash the place.
Then there’s the added complication of her being the sister of Sath’alor. I don’t know what he has against me. I was friends with Kes, nothing more, but he’s made all these things up in his head. I feel like I’ll have to tell her about that too, but I’m afraid that will scare her off too. But if I don’t tell her then she might just be angry later.
I talked to Arelanis about it too. She was better to talk to than Teniron, but not enough to really help.