- It’s been a couple of weeks, but I still wanted to write about it. Terellion and I had our wedding and it was great, except I fainted. I don’t really know what happened. I just started feeling a little dizzy. I tried to fight it, but I woke up on the ground. I wanted to continue, but Lani made me lie down longer and then my father made me sit in a chair for the rest of the ceremony. Everything else was perfect. I think everyone had a good time.
- I don’t feel a lot different, but I do know that Terellion will always be by my side, not literally, but I know he’ll always watch out for me, and I’ll always watch out for him. It’s relaxing to know that he’ll never betray me, and I’m free to love him as much as I want! It’s a lot!
- We were technically married before the wedding, but everyone knows we’re married now. It was really embarrassing to know I passed out in front of everyone, but now I can call him my husband.
- Malwen was adorable in her dress and with her flowers, and Narise was dressed up too, and quiet, which is good because I wasn’t sure she would be. I think she might be getting a tooth because she has times when she isn’t happy at all, and there’s nothing anyone can do to fix it. Maybe she knew her ann’das were getting married and it was time to be quiet! Probably not. It’s more likely that she tired herself out the night before, but if she did, Terellion didn’t tell me. He didn’t seem tired either.
- I didn’t sleep very well the night before. I stayed at my sister’s place so that Terellion and I wouldn’t see each other before the wedding. Malwen was with me. Lani’s guest room has two small beds so she got one and I got the other. I don’t think there was anything wrong with the bed or anything. I just had a hard time sleeping.
- Then the next morning was really busy with everything going on. Aeramin helped a lot by teleporting to the school and back to coordinate things, and I know teleporting isn’t easy for him. I just think of how much concentration I need to cast a fire spell, and I know it’s like that for him with arcane based spells. I’m grateful to have him as a friend.
- The food was amazing. I’m really grateful for Tik too. I don’t know what I would do without him at the school. Terellion made the best cake ever. I might have taken a couple of pieces to save for later. I’ve learned how to make small time bubbles. Renner said they were perfect for keeping cake. I have to keep some for him too.
- Our trip lasted a week, but it was only one night in real time. Chronomancy helped us have our trip alone without worrying that we were leaving the girls for too long. Well, we still worried a little, and it was a week long for us, but only one night to them. Everything was fine.
- Our first night was in Dalaran, in the past. We got the best room at the best inn. We had to stay in because I didn’t want to run into my younger self in the city. That would really mess things up. Everything has to happen the way it did or things might not be the same. Though there were some parts I could have really done without, I like where I am now, and I wouldn’t want to change it for anything. Anyway, we stayed in, and that was a lot of fun, so it was completely fine that we didn’t leave the inn.
- The next few days we spent at the dragon shrines. We stayed in the Emerald Shrine first and I told him about the green fuzzies and everything. He thinks I should try to get the students to study them. Maybe I will! We also spent nights in the Bronze and the Ruby shrines. We stayed at the top of the big tree in the Ruby Shrine. It branches out and in the middle is a large flat area, big enough for at least 20 people to camp.
- We also went to Sholazar Basin, and I showed him some really good places to fish, and the fish were biting really well too, so I got to bring back a whole bunch. Tik looked at me funny and asked if I really went fishing on our trip after the wedding. I just smiled and shrugged. He probably knows that’s not all we did, but it was a lot of fish!
- Anyway, we’re back now and I’m teaching classes and Ter is back to work too. We’re both busy with the girls too when we’re not busy with our work. Narise has been crying a little more, so it’s rare that I get to carry her all day while teaching. There’s always some point where she starts crying. Ter is never very far away, and he comes to get her when he hears her so that I can keep teaching.
- Malwen is excited about her classes starting back up soon. She’ll have more classmates this year. Vaildor and Kiandris will be returning. Vaildor will be continuing his program with the art school in Silvermoon so he’ll only be here three days a week again. Terellion’s mother and sisters have moved out and have settled into their new house, and his sisters will be able to attend. In a few years, I might have to pay the builders to make Lali’s classroom bigger! There are a lot of babies in the area, and now Nessna is having another. That room will definitely be too small.
- The one student for general classes this summer will be taking tests this week and hopefully moving on to magic theory classes this autumn. Lhoris came to us last spring with only a home-tutored education. His tutors weren’t very good, but from what he’s said about his mother, I wonder if she didn’t plan it that way so he’d have to stay with her forever or something. Maybe she thought if he was uneducated, then he’d have to believe whatever she said. Well, he’s here now. Luckily, she hasn’t shown up to take him back, but I expect she will when he writes and asks for the tuition money. I intend to speak to him after his passes his general education tests to see what he thinks she might do. I might decide to waive his tuition fee. He studies hard and he’s a good student. I don’t detect much magic ability in him, but he’s just barely over 50. It might still be developing.
- The other exciting thing is I’ll be able to take more students this fall. I’ve put signs up already, and the new buildings are almost done. I’ve also put a couple signs up looking for a couple of people to work for me, one for each building. They’ll need to do all the things Tik does here, minus cooking, because everyone can eat here at the main building. They’ll just need to make sure things are kept tidy, call lights out to make sure the students aren’t up too late, and probably restock the practice rooms in the new buildings. Ter might want to do that, so I need to ask him first. There will also be some gardening to do around the new buildings, but I think it’s already too late this year.
- I’ll have to find out which students want to move to the new places, and who wants to stay in their current rooms.
- Kes and Ordinicus have moved into their new place too. They’re neighbors with Ter’s mother and sisters! Lilithel has moved to the house at the bottom of the hill next to the stable. She spends most of her time with the hawkstriders and dragonhawks in the stable, so it works out well to have her right there.
- That frees up Lilithel’s room. The student buildings are almost done. After they’re done, there’s going to be more work done to the house. We’re having a door put between our room and Lilithel’s old room and turning it into a nursery for Narise. Malwen’s bathroom needs to be built, and the tower needs to be modified to house a clock too. That’s going to be a lot of work. Hopefully it will be done before the rainy season starts again.
- I’m so glad the wedding is over. Almost everything went as Hethurin planned, which was quite a feat considering how much there was to coordinate. And guess who had to make sure everything went right. Yeah, me. I had to teleport to the school, and back to town a few times to make sure things were going well and everything was on time. Teleports aren’t easy on me. Luckily, everything was perfectly timed with our arrival at the school’s garden gate.
- There was one thing that went wrong. Hethurin passed out during the ceremony. It was a warm day and his robe had at least four or five layers. He was also very nervous, which probably contributed to his light-headedness more than anything else. I was standing next to him when he started to sway. I moved to catch him just as Terellion did on the other side. I wound up guiding him towards Terellion. I guess it was a bit symbolic, now that I think about it.
- Of course, he had three priests rushing to his side as well. His father was already up front as he was officiating. Two of his sisters joined. I stepped back and wound up having to calm Vaildor and Malwen down a bit. Vaildor thought Hethurin had died, and Malwen was worried about him being okay. I had to assure them both that Hethurin was still breathing and would be fine. He wasn’t out for long, but his father and sisters made him lie down for a while right where he was. Tik had a glass of water for him almost as soon as it happened. I have no idea how that man can be so fast.
- After about ten minutes, the wedding resumed, but Hethurin sat in a chair until the end when it was time for them to kiss.
- I’ve never been to a wedding so fancy, much less been in one. That’s including the wedding his parents planned when they arranged his marriage to Xyliah. I thought that was fancy at the time, but it was nothing like this. He must have spent a fortune on it. I know he did on the robes. He even paid the tailors to come out to the Ghostlands to his sister’s house to make last minute adjustments! He also had someone come out to do our hair. I wound up hating having my hair done by someone else. They pulled it back in a braid and that was it. Hethurin did tell them to make sure my hair wasn’t prettier than his. He said that! I thought it looked awful, but Imralion said he liked it. Sometimes I can’t tell if he’s just trying to be polite or not.
- Im and I have talked about most of the things that were bothering me. He said he’d be okay with Lyorri visiting when she’s older, which is good. However, I still feel guilty about mentioning her in any conversation with him. I feel like I can’t talk about her. I don’t know how having her visit when she’s older is going to work, but at the same time, I want to be part of her life. I don’t want to be ashamed of her. Maybe it took a while, but I think I’m finally bonding with her a bit. She has the sweetest little smile, even though she only has five teeth, and the cutest laugh. I’ve noticed she has different cries for things too. She has a hungry cry, and a wet diaper cry. She even has a Kes cry for when she want’s to be held by Kestrae. I don’t think she has one for me. She doesn’t cry a lot while I’m there. She tends to be very serious and observant, but prone to bouts of laughter. I love her.
- But I also love him, and I can’t talk to him about her because I feel guilty. Maybe I should talk to the confessor soon. I don’t know.
- Im has been investigating the murders on Murder Row. Well, not all of them, just the ones involving the male prostitutes there. I don’t know if he’s really doing it for them or not. He might just be doing it for me. I don’t know. If he cared about the people there who were affected by it, he would know their names, right? I found him at one of the restaurants in Silvermoon when I went to give him his portal home the other day. We sometimes eat there before coming home, so I knew to look there when he wasn’t at the building. He was there with two prostitutes. I didn’t know either of them, though the one does look familiar. He had bought them food. I ordered for myself, and asked for some extra bread with my order. I pushed it closer to them after it was brought to the table. I kept waiting for some sort of introduction to learn their names. I found out afterwards that he doesn’t even know their names. He doesn’t know them. He doesn’t know the names of the victims. Well, he did say he had those written down somewhere, but he doesn’t remember any without looking at his paper.
- It makes me angry. It’s just the way people in Murder Row have always been treated. We’re not people there. We’re not worthy of having names. If anyone is sent to investigate anything they’re not doing it because they actually think it matters. They’re doing it out of some obligation, whether they were told to by their supervisor or they think they owe it to their boyfriend, it’s all the same. The murderer is going to get away with it as long as they stick to the Row. I bet if this was happening anywhere outside the Row, they would have called in more than one to investigate. The crime scene would have been searched thoroughly for clues, witnesses would have come forward, the body would be examined for clues, they would have dusted for fingerprints, and I bet there’s a high chance they would have caught the guy before he went on to kill more. But this is in the Row so no one cares.
- I don’t know why it makes me so angry. That’s the way it’s always been.
- I’ll be hearing from the mage I sent to find information on Imralion’s parents soon. His mother showed up to see him soon after Hethurin’s wedding. He’s decided that he’s not very keen on a relationship with her. It makes me worry that my own daughter will reject me when she gets older. After all, I’ve given her away so she can have a better life. Sometimes I wonder what it would have been like if my own parents had given me away to make sure I didn’t have to grow up on Murder Row. My mother was good with me, but she was always a little absent-minded. My father wasn’t good with me at all. I can’t think things were very difficult growing up with the Matron at the orphanage, at least not as difficult as it was growing up on the Row with a drunk and abusive father, and a mother who trained herself to forget about it and constantly forgive him.
- Imralion’s father never wanted him. He paid Im’s mother to give them up and keep quiet. She placed them with the Matron. She didn’t abandon them to the streets. She didn’t just leave them to die out in the woods. She left them with someone she knew could care for them. I think if I were Im, I’d give her a chance now that she’s here. I guess I kind of understand how he doesn’t want to, kind of. I mean, not really, and the mage is going to come asking for his payment soon. I hope Lin appreciates that I helped find her mother, at least. With my luck, she’ll probably just wind up hating me more somehow.
Last night, Arcann’da and I stayed with my aunt and uncle, Lani and Morthorn, in Tranquillien. It was different staying in town because my bed was smaller, and I had to share a room with Arcann’da. There were two small beds in the room, but I don’t think one was bigger than the other. If it was, I would have let him have it because I don’t think he slept very well. I woke up once during the night and he was awake. He said everything was okay, and that I should go back to sleep, but when we visited his friends in the little house at the bottom of the hill before coming here, he kept saying he was nervous, so I think it’s that! This morning I told him not to worry and that Ann’da and Mr. Tik are going to take care of everything at home. I think he needed to hear it because he hugged me and said thanks.
I can’t wait to see the garden! It’s going to be beautiful! Ann’da has been working on it all summer, and Miss Lilithel has been helping when she isn’t at the stable. I’ve been helping too, but I know most of the decorations must be going up this morning. Ann’da has been working on things for the cake too. It’s going to be the most amazing cake anyone has ever seen! I’m really excited.
Today has been going really well so far. The tailors from Silvermoon are here. My dress fits perfect. There was also a flower delivery and everyone has flowers now. The guy with the flowers had more that he had to deliver directly to the school. Oh, and there’s another guy here doing everyone’s hair! He put mine up, and gave me little curls along the side. I got to look in the mirror, and I really like it! Arcann’da said he didn’t want his hair too different, but he had a couple of braids put in, and on the end of his braids, he got a gold thing with a gem hanging off it. Then after his hair was done, he had to try on the robe. There weren’t many adjustments to do, but he insisted they fix the one sleeve. I didn’t see anything wrong with it. His robe is so pretty. He looks like a princess, or maybe a king because he’s a boy.
Vaildor and Aeramin are also going to be in the wedding and they get to ride in the carriage with us. Arcann’da is going to make a portal so that my aunt and uncle and little cousin can get there on time. They had to get changed too and have their hair done. Aeramin hates his because it’s pulled back in a braid. I don’t know why he hates braids, but he does! Vaildor had some curls done too, so his is more like mine. They have matching robes that kind of look like Arcann’da’s robe, but less fancy. Renner, one of the students, was here earlier to get his robe, but he had to go back to the school because there’s supposed to be guys with swords there. This is so exciting!
The carriage is here, and there’s six beautiful hawkstriders with it. I think they have extra feathers on their straps for the carriage because I’ve never seen hawkstriders with so many feathers before. We’re just waiting for the right time now. I already ate, but Lani is trying to get Arcann’da to eat a little more because he didn’t have much breakfast.
I can’t wait to arrive to the party!
I’ve done it. I’ve left Murder Row. Of course, I have more reason now than ever before. Not that I didn’t have good reasons before, it’s just more relevant to my continued survival now. There have been some murders there recently that seem to be targeted towards the male workers there. At least, that’s what the others and myself were able to put together. Unfortunately, there’s rarely any investigation into these things in the Row. They just send someone to pick up the body, then it’s over. A lot of times they’re slow about coming to get the body, so more than enough people see the evidence. This time, there was enough to put together that the murders are connected.
I was lucky because an old friend, Aeramin, hired me to dance for a party. He used to work the Row as well, so I knew he would understand, and with him not on the Row now, and a mage on top of that, I figured he might have some ideas about where I could work. I explained everything to him when he came to make the portal to the party location, and he said he would see what he could do.
He found a job for me with the rangers! I couldn’t believe it when he told me I had to meet the ranger captain. I’ve never held a bow before in my life! I’m immensely grateful for the opportunity, but there’s a lot of training to do. I met with the captain, and I was able to start staying there immediately.
There are two other guys staying in the men’s quarters. Well, three, but one doesn’t really count because he’s a death knight and doesn’t sleep. I’m doing my best to make friends here, but I guess they don’t like it when I flirt with them. I find it really difficult to not flirt with guys. It’s just what I’ve always done, and it worked out well for me before. But yet, here, it’s different. I didn’t even mean anything by it, but the one ranger instructor does have a nice butt. I guess he didn’t like me looking because now they have a woman training me.
She’s nice. Her name is Linarelle. All the girls are nice. I think I get along okay with them. It’s the guys who don’t like me. One of the guys who stays here is Aeramin’s father, and I accidentally flirted with him. Then he said something about catching me in bed with his son once. I don’t even want to talk to him again. I’m so embarrassed. I do kind of remember that, but I wish he didn’t! Then the other one who stays here has a girlfriend. He had to tell me a couple times before I decided it was a bad idea to try to talk to him again.
Then the death knight wanted to know why I didn’t flirt with him. Umm, because he’s dead and that’s just a little gross, maybe? That’s what I said to him because it’s the truth. He actually seemed to be mad that I wasn’t flirting with him. Maybe that’s just the way he is. Death knights must be mad a lot of the time.
I’ve accidentally flirted with Aeramin too. He doesn’t get mad at me. He just says it’s nice, but he has a boyfriend. I’ve met his boyfriend, and wow! No, I don’t expect Aeramin would be interested in anything with me right now. That guy has a really nice body. His boyfriend didn’t seem interested in me either. It’s almost like no one does anything out here!
Anyway, his boyfriend is actually trying to investigate the murders. I don’t know if anything will come from it, but I told him all I could remember about what I heard. While I may be safely away from the Row, I have many friends who are still there. They are still in danger. I really hope he can find the guy.
I hope to visit my friends soon, but I have to ask Aeramin for a portal there. I don’t want it to be a portal where I go through and then I’m stuck there either. I need him to go with me so that I can get back! I’m not sure how keen he is on going there and seeing some of the other guys. Hopefully, he won’t mind. I’d like to see them to find out if there’s any new information.
- Hethurin and Terellion’s party went well, I think. Nobody got really crazy, but then I didn’t expect that anyone really would.
- I sat with Hethurin and Terellion for a bit while Imralion spoke with Kavia. However, when Hethurin started licking the icing off the cupcakes, and it’s worth mentioning that the icing was done in the shape of penises, I decided to wander off for a bit. I don’t think he even realized how he looked, but I didn’t appreciate it much.
- Julan did a good job dancing. I knew he’d be perfect for it. I didn’t know he’d be asking any favors of me. When I went to find him for the portal to the Ghostlands to the party, he said he wanted to talk, so we did.
- There have been some murders lately on the Row. Yes, shocking, I know, but these seem to be someone targeting male sex workers. Naturally, Julan was worried about this. From what he has heard, the murders are particularily gruesome with the victim being kept alive during most of it. I’d be worried too if I still lived there, and so I completely understood his reasoning when he practically begged me to help him find work elsewhere.
- Of course, there was no way I’d hire him for anything. We have some history together, and I’m sure Imralion wouldn’t trust me with him. He wasn’t a boyfriend. I didn’t love him and he didn’t love me, but sometimes the Row was quiet, and we were bored. It happened more than once, but we were able to remain friends without either of us wanting more.
- Anyway, I knew it wouldn’t go well with Im if I hired Julan for anything, so I asked Hethurin first. I asked him at the party, which was probably a mistake because Julan was right there, dancing half-naked. Hethurin insisted that he didn’t need any more help at the school, all the while he was licking penis icing off the cupcakes. It didn’t take me too long to decide to ask someone else.
- So I asked Sath’alor. I found him outside chasing Rylad around. He seemed a little confused at first, stating he didn’t need a dancer. I had to explain the whole situation, and reiterate that he was looking for any job. That means he’s willing to train as a ranger. Sath’alor eventually said yes. Julan stayed there at the ranger building that night.
- I went to see him in the morning and made a portal to Murder Row so he could get his stuff. He kept thanking me. I kept reminding him to hurry because I had lesson plans to go over, as well as a meeting with Maerista to go over the schedules. I’m glad he’s happy, and I hope he’s thanked Sath’alor as well.
- At the party, I did sit with Imralion and Kavia for a bit. She seems nice. I’m sure they’ll be happy together. I did my best to be pleasant and welcoming, but in my head I kept imagining what their baby would look like. I wandered outside after a short while of sitting with them. I sat and watched the undead guy for a bit. I had the thought that he was lucky because he doesn’t have to worry about things like that. I guess it’s not really lucky that he probably doesn’t worry about much at all. His mind is gone. I don’t think he worries or wonders about much at all.
- I’m still trying to figure out what’s right for me. I love Imralion, but I don’t see him ever wanting to be around Lyorri, and I do understand why. I just don’t think it’s fair to her. I’m worried that what’s right for me is actually what I think is best for her.
We have a new guy from Silvermoon. He’s come to us completely untrained so he can’t take an assignment for patrol yet. The first full day he was here, I stayed behind to train him, and let Arancon and Kavia take our patrol without me.
The new guy’s name is Julan and I can already tell he’s going to be difficult to teach. I do think he’s willing to try, but he has some habits that he learned in the city that he’ll have to lose if he wants to get along well with everyone without making things weird. I have spoken with him a bit, and told him that it’s not really acceptable to be trying to pick up all the guys here. He says he understands, but then he still does it. At least he apologizes now as soon as he realizes he’s done it again. I spoke with Arancon and Perothis before going back to the cabin the other night, and he’s apparently hit on both of them already. Perothis told him he has a girlfriend, and Arancon said he shut him up by asking if he didn’t catch him in bed with his son once. Anyway, I plan to speak to Julan again, and reiterate that it might be a good idea to get to know people before flirting that heavily with them.
I’m a bit worried about him fitting in. Arancon and Perothis also mentioned they changed their bunks to be opposite the side of the room that Julan sleeps on. They said he has dreams and talks in his sleep. I can only imagine. Maybe he’s just restless with being in a new place.
During his first day of training, we talked a bit where he was from, and what kind of skills he has. Oh boy, do I regret asking that! The short version is, he has no training useful to a ranger. He is in good physical shape, and has motivation to stay here and learn. He’s from Murder Row, the son of a prostitute and until now, a prostitute himself.
I’ve not seen him talk to any of the women here like he talks to the men, so I spoke to Lin about him. She’s agreed to try training him. Perhaps he would be able to stay more focused with her. I should have warned her not to ask about his skills.
I hate tests, but I didn’t fail them all. This comes as a surprise. I actually had a perfect score on my second language exam. I was able to choose between Common or Orcish. I don’t know a single word in Orcish, but I guess a lot of schools teach that now. Not that I ever went to school for very long to begin with. This whole being a student now is jarring.
Harrier has it so much easier. He just sits in the sitting room at the desk they set up for him near the window and works on clocks all day. I have to take stupid tests about things I don’t know, and don’t need to know. Do I need to be able to list all the past kings, not only of Quel’thalas, but human kings too? I don’t know how that’s supposed to be applied to anything useful in real life. Unfortunately, I didn’t pass everything, though my average was passing, if just barely. The headmaster still wants me to take some normal classes. That’s both a curse and a blessing, I suppose. It’s good because the normal general education classes are free. He’s asking the teacher of them to make a lesson plan tailored to what I need to learn based on what I missed on the exams. So I get a free class this summer instead of having to fake that my horrible, crazy mother refuses to pay for magic school. The bad part is I have to actually go to class and understand.
Of course, I could get out of it if I were able to find the book. I don’t think Harrier has had any luck either. I’m almost desperate enough to ask for the whore’s help, but then I would have to admit that when I told him I was just hungry, it was a lie. However, if he truly wants me to leave, and I think he does because it must be tiring to follow me around so much, then it’s possible he could help. It’s just as possible he may tell the headmaster, and that’s not what I want. I need to find something to convince him to keep quiet, if we decide to ask his help. I’m leaning towards it anyway as he may be able to get to places that we cannot, like the headmaster’s study. I’d be surprised if he were able to get into the bedroom to check there, but at the same time, I should never underestimate the abilities of a successful whore, and he must have been very successful to pay his way through magic training.
The other students have accepted me here. Some of them helped me study for my general education exams, and I did get to follow them into their rooms while they searched for a book they needed to show me something. I haven’t found the book in any of the rooms I’ve been into. Some of them also showed me their practice rooms, and of course, there are bookshelves in all of them too. Hopefully, Harrier is allowed in all of them for the clocks.
I hate the Ghostlands and I hate books. I just want to be done with this job so we can go back to Stormwind. At the same time, I’m hesitant to leave. Once we go back, Harrier will be staying at the house with the others, and I’ll return to my apartment with the view of the hole where the park used to be. I hate sleeping alone.